Sunday, May 29, 200511:16 PM
ai.. just watched wu jian dao..and now feeling realli crappy.... the show can realli drive pple nuts leh... for 1 moment i realli hated andy lau.. cos he realli detestable lor... damn him lor.. wth? the pple trusted him so much and he...can just kill them without any hesitation... he double crossed all the pple lah... everyone was in simple terms a victim... even that mafia lord... and becos of him, the inspector got dumped from the 21st story..and leung got shot in the head.... and the other slimeball got shot by him as well..
then u tink deeper... if u were in his shoes what would have done? turn urself in? give up everything? i tell u saying it is much much much easier than doing it.. to be frank.. i tink i would have done the same.... NO .... infact im positive that i will do the same... wat can i do? im not going to give everything up just lidat... BUt the show also potray lau as a character of integrity.. much as the cold blooded assole he was...( this is not in reference to anyone in real life* take note!) he chose to be a good guy* or rather he was forced....
ai ya.. bottom line... i just want to ask.. wats the point of having a conscience? isnt it that damn worthless? i mean the moment u do sumthing bad.. theres no turning back... especially when u climbed so high.. u mean u wana risk losing everyting? i have to admit... i do not have such courage... it might be cold, inhumane... but if i was Lau i will neva turn back the moment i chose my path... in simple terms, i will get rid of leung the moment opportunity presents itself... not b4 he blackmails mi... i mean wahts the use of having a conscience? It has already lost its purpose the moment u did sumthing unforgivable... u cannot be redeemed.. at least not without having to lose everyting.. and that evrything might very well include ur life.. ur loved ones... ur possesions.. is it wrong to say tink lidat? isit even human?
But i believe that i am close to finding miself.. and reassuring that i am what i am will be my goal.. i will not let those who i hold dear to mi to be disgraced... i wil not
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