Sunday, May 01, 20053:46 PM
i sumtimes find that my biggest nemesis is mislef.... i wake up evryday, look in the mirror and a part of mi tells mi another day of adventure awaits.... the other, simply told mi that this was pure slavery and i should sieze any and every chance to escape the cancerous system that ad became concrete law in the society. Employment, education, they are but mutations of slavery that our forefathers have tried to wipe out, believing that we were the crusaders of light, marching towards a bright furure; a bright future in which we all have to study all day long, be subject and servile to our employers, and more often than not, i find mi latter half a more convincing advisor. perhaps this is wat a split personality is called.... A part of mi tells mi that to scale any peak, the individual must first be relieve of his burden, but ..... alas, i am unable, unwilling... regrets which i have held i still hold.... Y? i have in ways become more dependent on my brain than my heart... but still the two ahve in times interlock in a power struggle that i cannot ye understand why... pple whom i should forget i hold onto to them dearly.... the memories weaved from the past have moulded mi into wat i am today... and i am thankful for them. But..... i cannot do it alone... i need time and time is luxury few posesses... i am afraid.. thus... that i will be trapped in his vicious cycle... bearing these burden... the lines of hatred and love have been blurred.... i hate the pple who have made mi regret, who had in circumstances drove mi to a \edge where i had no choice but to escape...... and it is unfortunate that it is the pple whom u hold in high ezteem, the pple u admire, the pple u love, the ones who endear themselves to u ; they are the oni ones who can hurt u the deepest.... Flee and live to fight another day... but to fight others, u have to win urself 1st.... and fleeing only makes the odds more uneven than it already is... Time can heal all wounds, but it can also cause ur wound to fester and seethe.... there are more than a side to all things in life... u can blame urself for being feeble and weak minded, or u can blame ur enemies for deing powerful... u can hate urself when u are too weak to protect ir uphold ur ideals, protect ur loved ones, or u can blame ur loved ones for being that important, to be able to hurt u so deep..... as i've said, i do find miself at the interdwindling paths.... yet i chose to escape and now i fear the consequences....... for those out there who have done the same, who are bend on doing so, i give a word of advice... face it sooner and be done with it..... the answer to all ur problems can be found in a single being.... U.....
DEATHNOTE.
