Friday, June 03, 200511:12 PM
suprisingly, today started out fine despite the horrendous hours of tutorial and lectures that were installed for us... expectedly, oni few turned up and fewer still survived.. barely 6.. ai. guess thats just another day at YJ.. out ct was not her regular self as usual.. ai.. wha can i say.. she always pms when it comes to iour lessons 1.. then so mani pple pon till her pms just became more than that.. and we all noe from young and experience that any woman during this perios is no woman... they are KILLING machines.... sori( no gender discrimination) ... but today 2 lan would be simply too mild a word to describe her.. she snap at us like we were AP students.. hey who isnt in YJ? ai... heck her lah.. shes getting her hypertension.. not mi..
Then went home lor... had to cencel outing with tang.. cos my family went back to wat it was known for; cocking up.... ai.. went for dinner with them... c liao then sian...
nothing much to write about.. there isnt anything which i felt particularly important... probably cos i didnt get to c the hardcores... life's neva boring around them... or more unproductive... haha.. who ask u all always pit stop? anyway i dun realli mind.. cos its kinda nice just hanging out with them...we dun realli have to do anything.. i just feel great around them..( cant say the same for them though.. and occasionally i do get pissed off.. yesterday was an instance.. cos i was teased like.... a cattle i would suppose.. cos i cant find anything dumber than that liao... somemore a moronic 1 lor.. damn lor...
Ai anyway juz watched GSD.... it was damn nice..and the 1st episode which i just have to write about.. not as a fan but as a person.... the show kinda stirred up sad emotions... i duno why.. but i couldnt stand stellar dying... and suddenly shin dun look all that sickening.. and kira dun seem that darn innocent either... i noe it wasnt him.. hell it wasnt.. but i just cannot clear the doubt of uncertainty.. IS there anything which we can coll rite? i mean we desire strength to change things for the betta.... bu we all noe our strength are limited.. but of cos it doesnt stop us from trying... then do we blame those with strength when they cannot help us? or do we pursue strength ourselves? strength to change things.. and then wat? let the cycle repeat itself? it neva ends... we have the strength to make things betta... but for whom? there is neva a universaly good thing i suppose... to stop enemies from killing ur family, ur friends.. u kill them... and then to avenge their fallen comrades, family or friends, the avengers kill u.. and ur family, freinds seek vengence... but isnt it for the better? t0 protect ur friends, those u endear... isnt this what u wanted? when we have strength we coll the shots.. and we get blamed when things go wrong.. and we have none... we blame those with the strength to rectify UR personal crap....
But at least i now know what i need to protect and love... i have no doubts to be selfish, merciless and even fearless when the tyme comes... i guess this is wat i have to say today then.... making sumting outta nothing.. overreacting u may say... but at least i am clear on my stand.. and i believe that this is a huge step towards a better tomorrow....
till next tyme then.... ( actually only tmr oni..... looking forward)
DEATHNOTE.
