Sunday, July 24, 20057:40 PM
Life's full of contradictries dun u tink? Well.... for mi it has always been so.haha how so? well just a moment ago, i was agruing with my mum about camp thngy. The problem lies wif her. She kept bugging mi on my decision asking mi what i would do tmr. i told her. and she kept bugging mi for sum other stupid stuff like dinner and even leaving my wallet around the place- all that arising from one stupid screwed up camp which i told her i would skip eva since last week. well her being the intelligent all wonderful mom of mine, within a flash( a week) realised that what i was doing was wrong. ANd i tot the issue was long settled. apparently NOT. Ai.. shoudlnt have underestimated her lightning quick reflexes huh.... then she reali pissed mi off when she went to her lecture on mixing wif friends. and i told her i was fine. for an entire course of twenty minutes. ive been doing so. HOLY. i wonder if shes going to come next week and ask mi if im fine. ( seems that all info take an averge of 1 week to sink in 1.) and i told her i got it covered. Buay da han. then she kept asking wat i did. i told her the details. when i lent money to my classmate, i attached conditions. i wanted her to tell my form that she spotted mi today and i was sick. cos apparenkt both of us live in AMK so its always betta to have a key witness rite? then my mom was going like 'GOD what if she bao tou u?' and i went ballistic. what the freaking hell was she toking about. a minute ago she was telling mi to mix with friends. and i told her i did. and now shes telling mi to be wary and keep away from them. AND then i knew wat she meant. SHe meant that she had been toking a whole load of crap for the past half an hour or so. shouldnt have underestimated her quick thinking again. man i keep falling for her obvious traps. and then i ignored her. things realli went crappy when she started bringing up the past incidents when i skipped and nothing happened. wads her prob anyway. She didnt care about anythng asides from the results anyway. and she shouldnt start now. cos shes realli screwing my mood up.And what she said made mi tot about whether it was worth skipping it. i wanted to go partly..... but i cant stand 5 days... but i wanted to canoe. ai.. tough coll. and i didnt mind playin round a bit... but 5 days with them... ai.... i dun reali like the no 5... maybe if they reduced it to 2 i might have decided to go. and besides my weekly friday orchard trip has been denied for two weeks now. im NT going to miss it this week. NOT FOR GOD. NOT EVEN FOR SATAN. ai..... but oher than that i saw no other reason to pon. i wanted time to miself i guess. i wanted to recompose miself... seem t have lost track of wat im fiteing for..... even when euny reminded mi that ' a great person such as miself choses to be who i want to be... not allow mi character to manipulate mi into being that bastard vinny always speaks of and currently is. its tyme to understand and reaffrimed my decision i guess... and thx euny.... although it was kinda of killing time plot but still... at least i understand what u mean. i shouldnt let the enviroment shape mi again. lest i let the past repeat itself...... but point being too stubborn on stuff. somethings u let go . sumthings u accept. and thats all there is. no more no less. but cant deny that of cos pple wan more than that. and its possible too. just work hard especially for pple who havent done their tutorials becos they were slacking off. hahahaha retributioni guess. BUt dun overwork til collapse can liaoz. kk cya
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