Wednesday, July 13, 200510:26 PM
Sumhow or other, my will has swayed under the slightest temptations and distractions for a few months. sumhow i couldnt neva figure out why. and i guess i neva will. perhaps sumthings are meant to remain unknown. Yet today i tasted sumthing i had neva in a long tyme. i tasted satisfaction. i tasted happiness. i remembered the feeling of standing above the rest and being at the peak. i guess i havent changed much after all. all these still meant as much to mi as they were. they always were. it was just that i was refusing to believe so. now i noe i have nt become weaker in any way. im still the same. this i must thank my bio teacher. for recognising my abilities i guess.... though the grades attained so far.. to be entirely honest, ive neva realli tried my all.. but it was more than enough to top the class.. both in the block and the most recent. i was kinda surprised though... so mani failed when the paper was noting more of a survey... it was simply demanding logic... haha i guess sumthing which the school lacks. but the teacher comments meant a lot to mi. at least it has invoked in me a determination. and the knowledge that i havent became weaker.... im still mi! i still crave the same things i did. i still love to to above others. sumthing that ive forgotten. but nevatheless, from now on, i try my best. i will path my way to the peak on the bodies of those i defeated. i will be relentless...(perhaps. if it does last)
DEATHNOTE.
