hey guys.. heres another stupid entry. warning, a waord of caution. DO NOT READ IF U ARE FEELIN ANY OF DE FOLLWING SYNDROMES; PISSED OFF, DEPRESSED, BORED, OR ANY OTHER EMOTIONS WHICH MAY INCUR THE NEED TO ATTEMPT SUICIDE. IM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY OF UR ACTIONS.
man. eva felt tat vinny is right? and the TV is junk. well i did today. infact just an hour or two ago cos i was buzy toking to euni. Anyway i was just watching ' shi wan ton qing yuna' man.. god i was pissed. the swindler( liu hua) was literally cheating the hell outta the female lead and the female lead was still beating round the bushes when she obviously noes who she likes just so becos she couldnt bear to 'judge' pple even when they had concrete proof against the lying bastard. WTH! realli damn pissed. everytime he gets caught he will ahve sumthing else to save his ass.... argh!and the female lead was like, i believe hes a good man. its al miunderstanding. wth!
ANyway it just dawn on mi a fact tat i always known but neva acknowledged. why isit that we despite all the strong feeling and trust we have for our closest kins, friends, lovers, perfer to doubt them even at the slighest hinge of doubt seeded by a person who has completely no sentimentals attachements to u wat so eva? just cos u feel tats its justified to give he person a benefit of a doubt? so tat u can feel at peace with urself and feel gr8 that ure fair and precise in ur judgement? OR its just cos ure stupid? or afraid? afraid that ur relationsip isnt as perfect or flawless as u tink it to b?tat ur most trusted may b plotting against u and his true intentions behind a mask..... and if it is... then is it wise or foolish?
IS it stupid to suspect those whom u hold closest to ur heart? are u afriad to let any1 get too close to u? that u can neva let loose urself to another totally? cos ure afraid to take risk? that ull get hurt?tat u be a loner ur whole life cos u neva learnt truely 2 live with another. to accept another? or isit smart? to always have a trumph card upon which u can implict the worst possible pain on those coest to u? oni by possesin it? to show ur distrust of them?
And another thing tat pissed mi off was her wishywashy-ness.... man.. it just reminded mi of........... shouldnt say anything. anyway just do ur stuff bah. if u noe wat im tking bout. i went through this countless times. i dun hope to do it yet again. u noe wads the best for urself. the impt part is implementing it. so i guess its still up to u.
