havent been updating my blog for nearly a decade now. Been kinda buzy i guess. and depressed. and angry too. juzt in time to welcome the on coming exams i guess. no one goes to the examinations with a grin on their faces, at least for mi. too much was assumped to be done and left undone. all under the same stupid presumption tat i had all the tyme in the world. true. i had the tyme. but definitely i didnt forsee my mood had a part to play with it. now.. forcing urself to study isnt exactly the kinda thing i would wana do. but what choice do i have, other than the obvious( army, and then mac as my liveihood. or betta still quit now and go poly.all these 1 year for wad then?). anyway just wanted to say sori. truly. even to vincent. i mean i should have been immune to his crap. but comin outta nowhere and scolding a fuk in my face isnt what i would call normal exactly either. but i suppose it was too much to ask u to lay low or go die. cos ure vinny. i should have known beta. i could have well gone ask my mother for a new hp and have betta luck.
and muz admit this week hasnt been all that well either. 1st of all every1 said the promos was a killer. except for sum minorities. cant say that things turned out as i expected. true the exam is over, but i feel that this is what the exams are areas where even a blockhead like mi can learn. exams are about more than academics. its bout the developement of individuals. true for most part, skools bout grades, but through exams we see the ugly side and the definations of the making of a respectable person. It is those who are able to get over the setbacks and conquer the odds who make the best studnets i feel... true grades are well, grades, but what realli separates a persons caliber is his ability to stomach the setback and within that span of time tink of the next step instead of dwellin over the last. and having courage to acknowledge even the worst of fate.
Its pple like that who make the top few. regardless of odds. to work against and accept things as the way they are. and it is these pple whom i admire and wish to learn from. hahahaha u may tink im bullshittin over here. but heres sum facts for u too. i just got my dw and ca marks for maths. ( and i need to pass maths to promote), and not surprisingly i flopped. result?:a 43 for an Ao pass and a whopping 63 for a A pass. to be frank, i neva scred beyond fourty. and to be even more truthful, when i saw the scores. my heart reali sank. i was in daze for the rest of the day.. which was yesterday by the way. so i was quite volatile i must admit. i kinda snapped.
yet thinking back, how the hell can i dwell on such matters? when i have pple who working hard against adversities.. and a living breathing example at that. i would have been less than a man i suppose. but i admit that for an hour or so, i was at loss of what to do. my mind was totally blank. so blank that my brain couldnt even regrister the fact that im sad.if a gal could all of this and stil stand up to it, then i realli wasnt fit to be a man if i remained lidat.....for that i tink she deserves my respect. As a role model. as a friend. and as a great person that we all can learn from. but for now. realli thx......
