hahaha didnt feel like goin skool today. not feeling particularlly miself. and didnt wana c sum faces in skool.....dun realli noe how to react to them anymore. As a classmate? as a friend? or as a presumed pretend-to-be-empathtic mocker? i noe how freakin annoying they are cos i've seen and heard my share of their thrash in skool. hong meng is my friend. and i tink that the decision is his. Its not sumthing we can decide for him. and besides i realli detest sum pple who served as onlookers and pretend to be tat damn sad for him and then laughing and toking bout their future plans in front of him. BELIEVE mi. ITS FREAKIN DISGUSTING. i wana puke just tinking bout it. as hard as i tried changing the subject around him...... my efforts went futile becos of.... forget it. and i noe im a person whose mouth quicker than the mind. and i wouldnt wana sprout sumthing out and let hm to believe im like the others.... anyway tats the reason why i didnt wana go skool today. cos im sick of class politics.... and secondl i needed sum time off to relax and perhaps run a lap or two. found out tat im in worse shape than i tot. six laps were nothing back than. today i had to force miself to finish the last three laps. man. need to train up again.... but nevatheless it was a good decision to run today. it kinda cleared mi mind. i could tink through all the boogling matters taht been plauging mi.... and i kinda decided tat i should just stick to my decision.... then again i noe its difficulties. i wouldnt dare to imagine tat sum day would be able to smile thinking bout it. but i do hope tat i do not feel a sense of regret thinking bout it.... kk cyaz. get to working on my script then
