sigh......skool reopens tmr. and.....yet it feels as if i've not done lotsa stuff i wanted to do. Its gonna be a tough year ahead. taht i noe. i understand. but i neva figure it goes beyond homework and stuff. i had glady comprehended this to be a..... refresh9ing experience. and yet the feeling of dread lingers still. hahaha i'm toking like a dying man. and thats exactly what i feel like rite nw........ ai.... guess i cannot expect things to remain the way they are.it would be too easy. But i have to be lying if i didnt admit it wiuld be easier if i do not feel so crappy now. when Miss Lim left, her last msg was to b content wif wad i have, and count my blessing everyday, but i cannot say that i have accomplished any of that. Hahaha weird huh? i neva gave a 2nd tot to it. and it struck mi now. that indeed i feel crappy oni becos i always want more than wad i get. i neva feel content.
and yet when i told tang of my goal; to be independent, he said i was realli a home bred slacker. He was rite though. But i wasnt lying. guess i have to rephrase it. my oni goal in life is to be content. yet doesnt tat contradict? if i am content, i wouldnt need a goal. i would be happi wif wad i have and live it throughout just as i am.... regardless i dun intend to argue wif any1 teh diff... happi skoling every1!
