wrote a whole lot juzt nw. but decide all were irrelevant. Wun deny that i dun feel quite rite after watchin the ai de zhang men ren finale. dun deny that for that instant, watchin the frame where ruyi and jie kuan exchangin vows, i was overcome by envy. and then when the frame switched to lance, i didnt noe why.... but that was this slight impulse for mi to tear....
Alas the show finally ended. a pity. its been a gr8 show. but all things come to an end. is it not true that all rhings that have a beginning have an end? its up 2 u. Sumtimes, happiness is in the process. for some its the end. for the unfortunate feel, its their beginning. the 2 latters are easy to comprehend, but the former u say? wTH?! who gives a shit bout process? i oni wan results.
i ask. what do u need results for? is it not inevitably boils down 2 the fact that u recognise that just like the mean which u underwent to meet ur objectives, that ur life is too similiarly, just a simple process? and that u wana ensure its smooth execution? that u wana be happi for all its worth??
similiarly. love is the same. it is the process that defines love. there is no true beginnig. oni an end. and an inevitable 1. to mi, oni love that is meant to last can and will last, yuan fen shi bu nen qiang qiu de. If u were prepared to take the risk to love, surely u would also have tot of the consequences?
U r the pilot of ur life. u decide when to land and take flights. surely u recognise the danger when u 1st flew, if u forsake such details, truly u do not deserve to fly. if u do not understand that love is more than enjoyment; that it is a privileged responsibility, u do not deserve to love.
but beyond all, to love sum1 else, u must 1st love urself. how can u claim that u treaure the life of ur partner tat much and yet not give the same to urs; the one who means the world to her? would it not selfishness? that ur selfishness would led to her sadness ultimately?
thus, wif this principle, i believe that there are no faulters in love. for if it was love. it exists if only it its meant 2. No 1 side is responsible. and its neva been easy to fall outta it, but no matter. time will hea wounds. whther u hope to admit it or nt. that from the start, even without her/him, u have been living.
that u have been independent. and u treasure urself. for if u have not, u would not have survived till then would u? the simple fact atht u r alive simply means u had the guts, the ability to live on alone even b4 u meet him/her.
that does not change. not now. not eva. u live for urself. and love is a simple process which enriches ur basic journey; ur process of life. ultimately, it is u who lives for urself. and u who makes ur own decision. to be glum and sad. blaming urself and others, or simply look up to this fact. that u lived. and u still do. theres no diff. its u who makes the diff. and personally i would choose happiness. regardless of which path i take. i choose oni cos i noe i wunn regret.( even despite grumblings and stuff)
but i accept that. and its up 2 ya. lifes too freakin short to waste revloving round sadness. make ur choice and stick to it. not choose and regret later.
